Tonight has been another horrendous night. If that weren’t bad enough, September 16 will always be one of the worst days of the year for me. I’ll worry about tomorrow when it comes, but believe me, I will explain it all.

It all went horribly wrong just after 5 when Brittany Davidson showed up. Instead of a warm greeting like i usually have for her, I was more worried hat Lisa Toebben didn’t work yesterday, fearing that she took yesterday off knowing I would be there so she could avoid me. Brittany tried telling me that was not the case, but I didn’t believe her. I still thought it was all about Lisa not wanting to see me.

I then blew up. I thought Brittany wanted nothing to do with me. Liz had to take me outside and calm me down, but it didn’t work, because then I took my frustrations to Facebook and posted something about how I thought people in the small towns in Kansas were didn’t like me and didn’t want me there.

That was a very bad idea. Someone from one of the towns–I won’t say where–got very upset and threatened to cancel her subscription to the paper in her town because of me. I immediately knew I was dead wrong, and I deleted what I had posted, but the damage was done. And now I’m being threatened with having to give up Facebook, which would make me even more isolated than I am right now, which is pretty bad.

I tried to make myself feel better by going to get pretzels at QuikTrip for Brittany, Liz and Jaclyn Blankenship. They were all very, very grateful.

I have a lot of work to do, and then drive back west. Yikes. My life sucks right now.