Hearts of gold
It has now been 24 hours since Brittany and Zach’s reception began. I’m still digesting what went on last night.
It was a very heavy emotional night for me. However, it was the good kind of emotional, not the bad kind, which has happened far too often in my life.
Brittany has been a very big reason why the bad days have happeend so much less frequently in 2015. Sure, there have been some down days. The worst was the one week in April where I really had some awful times at work. Not only did I cry during a session with Crista–one which was scheduled at the very last minute–I also cried during a checkup with Dr. Custer. However, there really hasn’t been anything that bad since. Maybe a couple of bumps, but nothing which I couldn’t quickly put behind me.
However, when I’m around Brittany, it is nearly impossible to be down. If she sees me going down, she will always be very quick to pull me out of it. And she’s always right. I shouldn’t be down.
I admit I nearly blew it two weeks ago when I told her I was really scared about going to her reception. Fortunately, Crista, Peggy Cox and Stacie Seube pulled me out of the funk the next day and everything was back on track.
Crista is the biggest reason, other than the couple themselves, that I went last night. She has instileld the confidence in me to overcome just about any obstacles which once would have paralyzed me. Shannon was right when she told me last night
If I would have missed last night, I would never have forgiven myself. Brittany and Zach might never have forgiven me, either, and they would lhave been right. Brittany has told me so many times that I matter, that she and Zach love me, that they want me to be my best, that they will always care about me. I’ve very rarely have had that in my life. If I had any sliver of a doubt, it was erased last night when Brittany came running in her wedding dress outside the ballroom just after arriving and threw her arms around me.
With all the shocking and sad stories about men who cheat, men who abuse their significant others, and women who sometimes do the same, it’s so wonderful to see a loving couple whom I know is deeply committed to one another. Brittany will never have to live in fear, because Zach is the type of man who would never do something to cause her harm.
I have lost contact with so many friends through the years. I don’t believe this will be the case with Brittany and Zach. I hope we’re as good of friends 30, 40, 50 years from now as we are today. With these beautiful people, I’m confident we’ll enjoy many more good times together. And also be there for each other in the bad.
Brittany and Zach, I know I’ve said it so many times this weekend, but I love you. Very very much. And I always will.